So basically I asked if I could do this god spot cause I’m trying to get my confidence up and why not do it through talking about my faith and my belief in God.

Don’t get me wrong my faith for god has not been plane sailing it has been a rocky journey. I wasn’t always a Christian, I didn’t really believe in god when I was younger. But something major happened to me when I was 13. I was hospitalised with anorexia nervosa and was told that I had a week to live before my organs would switch off and no longer work, I didn’t think I was going to make it neither did my mum or my dad. I was at my lowest point in my life and I didn’t know what to do or what was going to happen to me. But god was fighting for me and he gave me the strength to keep going, to fight for my life and with him by my side and holding my hand I was able to make it. That’s when I realised god helped save me for a reason and my faith in god became stronger than ever. Not gonna lie in the last few years my faith for god has been on a rocky journey as not long after my diagnosis of anorexia, I began to recover and gain weight. I then became severely depressed and I hated myself, I hated the way I looked, the way I spoke, what my body looked like, I hated it all and thought I was better off dead. I was diagnosed with low mood aka depression. I didn’t know how I was going to get better. It felt like I was drowning gasping for air but god grabbed my arms and pulled me out and he showed me as long as I have faith he will never let go, he will always love and care for me. I really needed him at that point in my life and he was there ready to save me.

I know that faith can be a hard thing as stuff happens in your life that well upsets you and truly breaks your heart and you begin to wonder if god loved you why did he do that and I understand I’ve been there but all that I can say is that god does everything for a reason and the reason may be hard to see at first but there is always a reason behind everything he does, he has never stopped loving you. For me god has put me through so much tears and heartache but he knew it would make me a stronger person and it has because I know I can do anything if I put my mind to it, I am stronger than I believe and so is my faith for god.